My thesis is a fragmentary essay in a form of a diary. It collects thoughts and feelings from the past few years, divided to four seasons. The work explores how artistic practise and artistic thinking become part of life through personal notes. Autofictional work includes verbal pictures, thoughts about art, poetic fragments, moods, perceptions and quotes. The focus of the markings is in art and artistic thinking, but naturally they merge to comment on life in its entirety. This is a platform for things to happen.